And once again I find myself apologizing for the lack of entries... I have no excuse except to say that I only get on the internet about once a week these days, and what precious time I have is usually spent emailing or... well... I hate to admit it but Facebook usually pulls me in for a good hour or so! What? Really, it's NOT my fault, I swear it's like a time-warp that as soon as you sign in you go into 'Facebook time' and it feels like half an hour is equivalent to about 10 minutes of real time. Crazy. So anyway....
Call me a glutton for punishment, but I went to the girls weekend. It really wasn't all THAT bad. Not something I'd want to do every weekend, or even once a month for that matter, but it was definitely worth it to see my mom and sisters again. My sister is so great... she totally understands what it's like to be in my shoes, and she's SO considerate of my feelings. I'm so thankful for that. And I have the sweetest husband in the world who was praying for me the entire time, which I'm convinced made all the difference in the world. There was one point where I could have cried... but I didn't. I sucked it up and kept looking at the cute little clothes that I can only dream of having someone small enough to fit into someday. So that's what I did. I pretended that I COULD be buying things for OUR baby if I wanted to, but I was just choosing not to at that moment. Ha ha ha. Oh well, it worked for the time being. I know I could be buying things here and there for our baby... but I just haven't been able to bring myself to do it yet. Not yet. Maybe when we're officially invited to begin orientation. Maybe then it will feel right. But not quite yet.
Soon... soon our time will come.
As I was just looking back on my old posts I realized that I never really mentioned WHAT exactly we were waiting for. See, the adoption agency that we have chosen to go through (click here if you want to see their website) is a smaller agency, so they have set it up that they only work in a pool of 10 couples at a time. They gave us the reasoning that that way the birthmom (by the way, birthmom is not a real word according to Blogger. Ha!) isn't overwhelmed by too many couples to choose from, and also so that our money isn't tied up longer than it needs to be. Which, the money part is actually nice for us in our situation, but at the same time we're kind of chomping at the bit to actually BEGIN something. We were told that we had the option of going ahead with the homestudies if we'd like to, and then if anything comes up where a baby would come available from a source outside the agency we'd be all set to go, and then we'd just have to refer the birthparents to our agency... but I guess we're just a little hesitant to do that. SO, all that to say that we're just waiting to be put in the next pool of 10 couples that comes up. When that happens, we'll be invited to 'orientation' with the agency and then we'll be able to start homestudies and paperwork and our profile/birthparent letter. We also found out that if our homestudies come up while we're still in our 1 BR apartment, we'll be okay since MI doesn't have any laws stating anything against that. That was what we thought would be a major setback, but it turns out it won't be a problem. HOPEFULLY by the time we actually bring a baby home, we'll be in a house or at least a bigger apartment, but, well, if it were to happen sooner than we're expecting and we had to squeeze for a little while, we wouldn't complain. :) It just hit me yesterday that it's already been 3 months since we sent in our initial application. If the rest of the waiting time goes this fast, I'm thinking that we'll have a baby here before we know it. I hope...
Wish I could go on, but unfortunately that’s about all I have time and battery juice left for tonight.
I’m thinking of you all and wishing you well! ;)
